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Tuesday, March 03, 2009
i just feel like ranting it all out. rant rant. Haha. Apparently, there's just so much to mull over -.- i'm happy, i guess. but than there's just a downside to it. like, to have this happiness, you'll have to sacrifice something else, which in this case, is friends(guys). which is sad, really. sometimes i feel like i'm struggling between my friends and my bf. which is worrisome. cause it's like no matter what side you choose, there's something you gotta give up. how i miss the days i didn't have to think 'will he be angry if i talk to this friend/go out with this friend' and just doing things whenever i want, whatever i want. maybe i'm just too used to doing things my way. maybe i'm just a selfish cow. no matter what i do, i'm always not thinking enough for him. it's so tiring sometimes:(
i wanna be single so bad. this thought just flutters in and out of my mind so many times, i don't even know what to do. damnnnn.
