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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
i'm so tired.
i'm so tired of the quarrels. i just feel that i'm slipping away from this r/s every time we quarrel. it's just so mind-bogging how he thinks. he can link everything to anything. all i did was tell him that the camp people might be staying over. he was like how come. i was like. shilesse asked me if she could sleep over. i said okay. i didn't know she would be asking the rest too. i just said i felt weird asking the rest over too but it was okay since she asked already. right away he was' like do you want me to talk to her?' when it wasn't even an issue. of course i was like 'i can settle it myself. it's okay' there wasn't really anything to settle. they either stay over or not. simple as that. and yet, he can even make a quarrel out of that. he said i can settle me and my friends and not him.
turns out he was still sore about me not getting him something for 1 year. i apologised on numerous occasions, even said i was going to make up for it. and yet, he had to bring it up again. i hate it. i feel that we're quarrelling over nothing. over something small. i don't even want to quarrel over it. and today, he even asked me 4 times, over the whole day,who i was going running with when i SPECIFICALLY said in the late afternoon i was going running ALONE. what's his problem? is 'i'm going running alone' so hard to comprehend? he had to ask so many times! i hate it cause it feels like he doesn't trust me at all. like, what the hell do you want me to do?
i just feel that he makes me sad and i'm always quarrelling with him. i know, it's my fault at times, but that doesn't mean he can bring it up now and than and quarrel with me right? i already did admit it's my fault, i've apologised, what more do you want from me?!
